The following is a client email that I received yesterday, December 8, 2012:
I just wanted to update you. Diva was reunited with us today. 5 months after she disappeared, in the “fall” just as you had indicated. She was found by another rescue group in October. She was in a feral colony some 3 miles from our home. She was soaking from the rain and skin and bones. They found her microchip when they took her to be spayed Thursday.
We are soooo excited to have her back
Thanks for everything
Here’s part of the story; Diva’s person contacted me this past July with a broken heart that Diva had been missing. She just never returned from her outing that Sunday morning on July 15, 2012. They were doing everything possible to locate her, contacting the local vets and shelters, posting fliers, and talking with neighbors. We scheduled a session a few days later and I was able to connect with Diva and learn that she was still in her body which meant she was alive. During part of our conversation, Diva conveyed that she just wasn’t ready to return. She told me that she was being fed as she remained an outdoor kitty. She then showed me a scene that appeared to take place during the season of fall. This could be past or future, not present since we were in spring. My immediate sense was to convey “You’ll find her in fall.” Hard to swallow and that’s how it goes sometimes. I used a map and pendulum to determine her current whereabouts which means approximate direction and distance. I conveyed this information to Diva’s people and they continued to follow steps to locate her and kept their heart’s open to calling her home.
Although it is wintertime that Diva and her people are reunited, she was found in October, the season of fall. There is no exact science to locating missing animals. They have free will just a humans do. In the end, this story has turned out to be a happy reunion after 5 months of heartbreak.
I’ve read a few books about horsemanship, taken quite a few riding lessons and never fully understood how riding a horse could be pleasurable, authentically one hundred percent pleasurable. I’ve often questioned how I am supposed to trust a horse that I don’t even know, let alone, a horse trust me. Where is the trust and the pleasure when inducing torture and pain on a living creature to make him do something for me? Could it be that overly sensitive side of my character that questions? The side that has been judged and criticized? I’ve decided not to allow criticism to shame and doubt myself any longer.
I’ve been learning a new way of being with horses because I’ve met someone who has a different way of teaching horsemanship, her name is Charlotte Angin. There is more to it than just saddling up and hitting the trails. What I’ve felt deep down all along is real, there had to be another way of being with these spectacular creatures. They are alive, awake, aware and feeling manifestations of spirit. Today I am learning the true definition of Natural Horsemanship. I personally like to call it Intuitive Horsemanship because it’s about being in the moment and feeling. The feel is of utmost importance. I’ve read about feel, heard about feel, and now I understand what feel means for me.
I’ve been doing some personal internal work with a gorgeous mare named Geneva Grace. She embodies refreshing femininity, vulnerability and yes, grace. Our connection is so on purpose because she is my mirror. It so happens that she and I are on a similar path of change. Being with her in our sessions has been an eye opener because she knows when I am present and when I am not. I’ve learned when she is present and when she is not. Geneva and I have run energy, processed and shared simultaneous healing of similar issues. She has been a gift.
I’m also doing groundwork with her companion Penny, whom by the way is a lead mare. Penny is so self-assured with great strength and tender poise. My internal knowing tells me I am safe in her presence. She is teaching me how to be assertive and because she is strong-willed, my “tucked away” assertiveness is being called forth. My goal is to be more like Penny and to bring my assertive side out gracefully. It’s extraordinary to watch the way this lead mare can influence the herd with the slightest movements because of how she manages her energy. This is what feel means for me, energy management.
Whether I’m doing internal work or groundwork with Geneva or Penny, it’s one and of the same for me. If I’m not authentic in what I am feeling and the outside doesn’t match the inside, nothing works smoothly. If I leave my body and go to my head, connection is lost. I have learned this is why groundwork is so important. To see where we stand, to connect and be together. To appreciate who they are and to respect who they are because in order to trust one another, we must see one another. Before I get on a 1200 pound horse I want to feel a connection, I want to feel presence. They are not just horses with cute names that we “break” and “train” to do for us humans. They are sentient beings with personalities and feelings. They think, they feel and they understand. I feel like I am waking up into a new level of awareness. If I can stop and consider what is going on with them, allow them some time to consider what is going on with me, give them a moment to understand what I am asking of them, the possibilities of our newfound relationship are still in the making of the imagination.
Alameda See Spot Run invites you to come and celebrate their 1st year birthday party! They will have a caricature artist to draw pics of you and your pet, Renee Gallegos, Pet Psychic will be visiting, and food and drinks for everyone! Make a plan to attend on Saturday July 21st between 11 am and 4 pm to celebrate with See Spot Run!
Urban Pet Supply
2510 Santa Clara Ave.
Alameda, Ca. 94501
All donations collected will be presented to the FAAS Alameda Animal Shelter.
I recently made an intuitive connection with one of my newest feline family members, Carlito. I asked him what his thoughts were about being here with me and if he had a message that he’d like to convey. Carlitos words of love touched me deeply because there is so much more to our story. Although you do not know our short history, I still felt compelled to share his words because they can apply to any one of us with an open heart and a willingness to contemplate.
“You are one with all.
Be thorough, be true to yourself.
Don’t be shy and never let another guide your dreams and desires to serve themselves.
You are potent and strong.
Be who you are.
Live who you are.
I am here to guide you for you, for your soul purpose.
We are on purpose.
Remember to allow and to heed your intuition.
I play no games, this is it.
Trust me as you trust yourself and live.”
After reading “Dying To Be Me” by Anita Moorjani, I was motivated to take another look at a similar experience I had when I was a young woman. Although mine only seemed like a few brief moments, the sense of Oneness and the feeling of profound LOVE is congruent with many details of Anita’s near death experience (NDE).
I was neither ill nor in a coma or anywhere near death. I was a healthy young woman in my twenties seeking my purpose in life. I was still living in Colorado at the time and I was practicing Tai Chi with a group of people who would meet on a regular basis. We would gather to meditate and to practice other modalities with the intention of finding that “something more.” We were in the backyard of our mentors home, someone with whom I continue to hold very dear to my heart. She was guiding us through Tai Chi movements when at one point she had us lay our bodies down on the ground facing skyward. I had my arms stretched out at my sides with palms facing up and open. By body was relaxed and it was easy to surrender to the serenity of nature.
As I settled into my position, I allowed my body to relax more and more. Gradually I felt myself sinking into the earth as if she were a soft and down-like cushion. I was so at ease it felt as if my body were floating like a cloud. I don’t remember if my eyes were open or closed and I know it makes no difference. I could see the trees, the individual blades of grass, the house, the chain-link fence and the others in the group scattered across the yard. Although I was facing the sun I remember thinking Wow, how odd, I can see everybody and everything at the same time! There was a sense of lightness and a feeling of being detached from my physical body. I was everything. It was not only Renee laying on the grass, I was the grass! I was a blade of grass just “being” a blade of grass. I was the sky and the clouds that were drifting above. I was a tree growing roots deep into the earth from a hardy trunk while holding up branches sprouting delicate green leaves. I was everything happening all at once! I had this feeling of knowing that everything is perfect and on purpose. I felt bathed in warm and glorious LOVE. I was so happy! It felt like the true meaning of home. Everything is as it should be and all is well in the world. It was a timeless experience because it seemed to last so much longer than what I believe to have been seconds. I may have been in that state for only a moment and what a beautiful moment it was. It was a flicker of Oneness, consciousness unbounded. I was then back in my body and back in this physical reality.
Throughout my life I have always reflected on that particular instance and often wonder if my life was somehow changed from this rich observation. I want to say “yes” because afterward I also remember considering with amazement and a stronger sense of self the possibility of a grander scheme of things. Something much larger than what is available through our five senses. The taste of the infinite in that short visit gave me hope. It gave me a drive to continue my search towards self-awareness. Even after all these years I am still learning that loving myself is the key to living a passionate life. I am a work in progress and sometimes it feels at a snail’s pace. I say that respectfully because I am still learning to be gentle with myself and I absolutely love snails!
I am so grateful to Anita for sharing her NDE because it validates the intricate feelings and emotions that I had during my particular instance in the state of Bliss. I don’t feel alone anymore since I read her book. I am taking direction from her experience and from my experience and applying the mix to my life. Her story has given me inspiration to shake out the settled dust and refresh my way of “being” as I continue my quest for perfect self-love.
Here is a quote from Anita’s book that has left within me an imprint:
I have discovered that to determine whether my actions stem from “doing” or “being,” I only need to look at the emotion behind my every day decisions. Is it fear, or is it passion? If everything I do each day is driven by passion and a zest for living, then I’m “being,” but if my actions are a result of fear, then I’m in “doing” mode.
Thank you for taking the time to read my share!
LOVE to your infinite self and the infinite animals,